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//Sunday 2:03 AM
Just Gonna Stop For Awhile
Like the title says. I don't feel like blogging anymore.
At least not for now anyway . . . I would still continue I guess . . . But not now. I just feel really tired and sick and pretty much neglected these days. It's feels like no one is listening to me anymore. It's like . . . I don't know. Like I . . . don't exist anymore. I know I sound like I'm exaggerating but that's how I feel. No matter how much I tried . . . No matter how much struggled . . . No matter how much I talked, listened, waited, screamed, cried . . . My life doesn't have an impact on anyone anymore. Not like it used to. My friends are moving on. My family is moving on. I'm the only one who's still . . . here. Well, not 'here' here . . . It's just . . . It feels like I'm still stuck where I began in the first place. My every conversations. With my friends. With my family. With ANYONE for that matter. Every word that come out of my mouth. Or the words that flows from my fingers. It all seems like it's 'forced'. Everything seems like so unreal to me these last few weeks. My words are beginning to sound more and more like lies each and every day. I'm feel like I'm fooling myself. And everyone that I know. Heh . . . makes me wonder if I had ANY impact on other people's lives. Day by day, me . . . the real true me . . . is starting to feel like it's gone. Gone with the wind, some would say. I don't know. What I do know is that I'm not the same person . . . as I was before I started to go to my current school. I'm not saying that my new school is a bad place or anything. It's a good place. I met a lot of new people and even made some new friends along the way. It's just . . . I'm . . . Like I said before, I'm still stuck to the old place. The beginning. Although it's been almost a year but I'm still stuck with my old mindset. The mindset of a ten-year-old. No. Even ten-year-olds are better than me. I'm so laid back to the point of being lazy. I was lazy back then. Now I'm even worse. Totally not myself anymore. Anyway I'm getting off track here. Haha . . . I just re-read from the beginning of this post. And I just realised how . . . 'good' of a person I really am. Heh Yeah i know . . . I don't even understand that sentence there . . . So anyway . . . I'm trying to be the one who I used to be. To do that, I need to find my old self. AND to do that . . . I need to stop this for awhile. To give me time to look for myself. LOL it's not like I'm going anywhere on some kind of soul searching journey to the ends of the world or anything like that. I would still be in Brunei, obviously. But how I wish I could go on a soul searching journey . . . There's alot of places that I want to go. The place I wanna go is Ireland. I think it's a beautiful place. I hope I can go there someday. Actually I am going to have a journey. A journey to find myself. And to better understand this world we live in. I plan to go after college. I'm serious. I always wanted to go so why not right? So anyway, I'm gonna stop this blog here for awhile. So no new post at least for the next few months. I would still post something by end of today or tomorrow. My ending so to speak. Don't worry. I'm just gona post pics. No words. Well, maybe a few words lol. I guess that's it. It's been a blast writing things down here. No matter how brief. Besides I usually don't update like everyday of the week anyway so it wouldn't really make a difference. It's not like anybody likes to read my blog so . . . Haha yeah . . . I guess that's it then. Another post to go. Bye. [Sorry if I'm not making any sense. I'm just ranting right now.]
//Monday 1:30 PM
Plz Respond
So I've posted some of the logos I just made. Anyway please please PLEASE give me some feedbacks on it. I really want to know what you think of them.
Is it great? Is it a masterpiece? Is it full of horse crap? Anything.
Maybe give some of your ideas too. I don't know. My cbox is getting dusty people! haha j/k So plz guys. Talk to me! Kay I guess that's all I want to say. Sorry if I sound like a nagging raving fcuk. lol I'll put another one up later so for now bye!
// 12:57 AM
Some of the Logos
Ok here are some of the logos that I've design up till now. They're not that creative so . . . Haha anyway check them out and don't forget to comment on them ok? Also plz click to full view.  I kinda made two versions for the second one since . . . well . . . haha i don't know why.  OR  Anyway will update soon with more designs. Stay tuned. Bye :P
//Thursday 12:51 PM
A New Post in A Long While
Okay so . . . heh it's been awhile since I posted anything. Sorry I've been really busy these last few days. Well not 'really' busy. More like 'distracted'. Haha yeah 'distracted' *winks* Anyway it's the school holidays. The third day actually. Wow it's been THREE days already?! Huh time sure flies when you're doing nothing. Seriously. Lol But even though you may called it a 'holiday' but to me . . . it's just a SMALL break from school. We were still assign some work to do over the time we are relaxing 'away' from school. And when I mean 'some' work, I mean a HELL LOT of work. How can I feel 'relaxed' AWAY from SCHOOL when they give so much SCHOOLwork? It doesn't make any sense. We might as well go to school. Heck we might even get LESS WORk if we were IN school than AWAY. Haha sorry got carried away. I guess it shows that I still don't like school. Ashamed to admit it but I do. It's not that I hate the idea of going to school. It's just that I HATE schoolwork. Okay maybe HATE is a strong word. I DISLIKE schoolwork. *grins* Anyway I haven't done any of my assignments. I kinda have this tingling feeling that I won't be able to finish EVERYTHING even if I start NOW. I HOPE I can finish it all before school starts. I hate rushing. It makes me dizzy. Hahah So . . . umm what else? Oh yeah there's this thing that my friend is making and that thing is t-shirts. It's for this special environmental club she's building/organising/making(?) at school. How cool is that huh? . . . *silence* . . . Okay . . . so she asked me if I could design a t-shirt logo for this club. Being the ever-sayer-of-yes I am, I said yes. Shocking. The reason I said yes was because I was bored. Now . . . I-I have the basic idea what I want to design. B-but I just don't know HOW to do it. Haha yeah I know. Lame. So anyone out there, in the wide wide world who is interested in helping me design the logo, that would really really be nice of you to do. Heh I know what you might be thinking right now. I dug out my own grave. Why should you helped me get out of it. I know. I'm still figuring out what I'm supposed to do. I'm planning to make a really simple logo. I just want to put the word GREEN or something on the front of the t-shirt. Something short and simple. Nothing too fancy or hard. Actually I did made one. Except . . . well it wasn't . . . lets just say it wasn't looking nice. Haha I'm not a creative person. Haha Anyway, ideas or concepts is much appreciated. Just put your creative ideas on my tagboard and just maybe, I'll pick yours. :P Okay. That's about it. Right? Wait. Almost forgot. Two more things. Yeah I haven't posted anything in a long while so . . . Sorry if this post seems to dragged on and on and on . . . Coz it'll dragged on ALOT MORE. *evil laugh* So first thing, I made this really cool birthday gift for my friend about two weeks ago. You know usually people give birthday cards or presents or something birthday-ey for their friends' birthday right? Well I made a BIRTHDAY BOOK! YEAH! Haha I hate to repeat myself but . . . yeah. Lame. Haha I would love to post some pics of the birthday book but the ones I took are really really really bad. To the max. Like totally. It was all unfocused and blurry and it looked more like a big purple blob than a book. Sorry. Hehe but I'll post some anyway. I also made a black origami rose for her so that's good right? Don't ask me why I made a black one. She wanted it to be black so . . . what a guy can do right? .jpg) I did NOT purposely blurred the image ok? It was already like that when I took it. Hehe .jpg) .jpg) That's my name. DJimSD if you can't see it properly. :P .jpg) And here's the rose that I made. It's okay. I could have done better. Speaking of black, did you know a black rose symbolize 'death', 'depression', 'darkness', etc? Well I guess you could guess that from the colour black. It's interesting how black roses are really popular around emos or goths or even for some people who don't fall into the previous two categories but black roses doesn't actually exist. At least, not in this world. Heck I've never even seen ANY black flower before. Do they exist? What do you think? Anyway in the case of roses, the only colour they don't have is blue and black. How I know, you ask? I google'd it. *sigh* Google is an amazing thing. Haha getting off-tracked again. I was looking for the meaning of flowers one fateful afternoon and I just so happened to stumble to this website . . . florapedia I think . . . and it's an interesting site. It listed birth flowers, month flowers, meanings of different flowers, meanings of the colours of the flowers . . . They were really interesting facts to know. Since I was born in April, my flower is a daisy. Never wonder I always like daisies. Oops lol. But the thing is my zodiac sign flower, which is Aries btw, is a tulip. Weird, since I ALSO like tulips. Especially yellow ones. Oops. I really need to learn to keep my embarrassing secrets. Hehe :P Anyway since I'm not doing anything right now, I'll tell you the meanings for my two flowers. I'm just gonna copy and paste here so . . . :P  Aries: March 21 - april 20Zodiac Sign: Born under the symbol of the sure-footed ram, the Aries, a fire sign, is confident and fierce. Dynamic and full of contagious energy, those born under this zodiac sign are usually the ones who take the lead – quick to volunteer for adventure and preferring the road less traveled to previously charted territory. Birth Sign Flower: Match the Aries enthusiasm and zeal with flowers the color of passion (romantic or otherwise) – like an anything-but-demure red tulip flower bouquet. Dazzling and full of energy, it’ll appeal to their love of bold gestures and their appreciation for the slightly unexpected.  April: Daisy The month of April is represented by the daisy. Daisies have long been associated with innocence. The large vibrant blooms of the gerbera daisy have made it a favorite among flower lovers.Ok so . . . Haha and then . . . Oh yeah. About this new photo editing programme that I recently found and installed. It's called Comic LIfe. It's a really cool software by letting you put your pics into comic-style frames. It's kinda fun to do. But since I'm not THAT creative with these things and I don't know how to work all the functions that well yet so don't flame me, ok? Anyway, I just played around with it and one word to describe it is that it is really 'flexible'. Since Comic Life used to be a mac only software, maybe that's why it was that flexible. Now they made one for windows too. I can show my talents for comic styling. (Or more LACK of :P) Below is a few of those 'try'-s that I made. With titles and brief descriptions for each pics. Check it out and also give comments, ideas, etc. Anything. Just put your opinions in the tagboard. Maybe I can make a whole comic book using your ideas hehe so enjoy. And Bye. Also, let me know your ideas for the t-shirt logo making. It would really help. Okay bye. 
//Wednesday 10:48 PM
2nd tag list . . . again
Okay so I'm just gonna cut it straight to the point. No descriptions this time. Just full-on answers. Here I go . . . 100 truth about me
So I guess that's it then. Whew finally. Hehe k, till next time. Bye
//Sunday 8:38 PM
Another tagged
So I guess this is another tag list. Heh it's like all I've been doing lately is write a tag list . . . Tagged by Lina. Anyway, here goes . . .
// 7:14 PM
A Poem For A Friend
 I meant to post this awhile ago but just could not find the time to do it. I know it is a little late for this but just going to take this chance to post it. So this is a poem made for my close friend who suffered a great loss just last week. Hope you are holding up and know that your friends and I are here for you. Always . . . an ear to sigh to, a shoulder to cry on, open arms to embrace in . . . always . . .
 I guess that is it. I know everything may not be perfect right now but give it time. It will all be alright.
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