I know I don’t have to double post for this week.
But I felt obliged to do this since my last post was kind of short and stuffs.
So yeah here’s another poem I found awhile back as well.

                                                                                      

trust in me
cause i know the pain

trust in me
cause i know the cold nights

trust in me
cause i know the loneliness

trust in me
cause i know my heart

trust in me
cause i know my soul

trust in me
cause i know what i give

trust in me
cause i know who i am

trust in me
cause i know what i want

trust in me
cause i know i can trust you

                                                                                      

The reason I’m posting this one now is because…
I don’t know why. I guess I’m feeling a bit emo right now. Heh.

Yeah. The topic for this one is trust.
I used to felt that I couldn’t trust anyone.
Not my family. Not my friends. Not anyone.

I always felt that if I told someone about my secrets,
that he/she will spread my secrets to everyone else.
That I would regret it for the rest of my life.

I know what you’re probably thinking right now.
That it is stupid to shut it all in just because of a stupid paranoia.

But I have to tell you now.
That it is not stupid.
It is being cautious. Being careful.

I once told a secret to a very close friend.
My friend kept it just like they said they would.
But then… things changed.

Everything changed. Me. My friend. Everything just… fell apart between us.
I didn’t know how but I do have the feeling I know why.

There are things that I’ve done in the past that I’m not proud of.
The times when I considered myself weak.
Things that I am ashamed to admit.

And I told them to someone.
Someone I trust.
Someone I trusted.

I guess it’s normal for me, for anyone basically, to have this kind of feeling.
The feeling of mistrust.
The feeling of betrayal.
The feeling of being banished.

Anyway I think I’m getting too deep into this.
I really should stop doing that. Hehe yea…

Anyway I guess that’s it. I’ll post something upbeat by today.
And when I say today, I mean today today.
It’s already past midnight. Going to sleep guys.

See ya next time Xp Bye.

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Labels: emo, friday, friend, trust